So about a month ago, I decided that I would use my interactions with people not only to learn more about them and grow closer to them, but also to learn more about myself and take time to think about why I do the things I do. Socrates said "The unexamined life is not worth living", so I'm examining mine.
I was talking to my guy today and I realized something. I was in a pretty uncomfortable situation a few weeks ago (due to some complicated circumstances in his life), and I told him later on that I had a problem with it. Well, today we were talking about and I realized something. The reason that I was so uncomfortable is because I am afraid of his criticism. It seems like he's been criticizing me a lot lately, and I kind of have a limit to how much of that I can take when it's not balanced out with positive statements (like most people). Anyway, I realized that I just don't want to make him mad, and I'm afraid of him judging or criticizing me for something I say or do in certain situations, and so I just took myself out of the situation so I wouldn't have to deal with it. Not cool, but true nonetheless.
Now I'm wondering: am I too sensitive? I've been thrust into a situation that I feel is a little overwhelming, but should I just "woman up" and deal with it?
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